2011 was a pretty shitty year. Aside from having gotten my job, everything else was pretty shitty. Kens health issues was/is the most worrisome (The first week of 2012 finds him in surgery) CPS was the stupidest shitty thing (We fought the law and WE won). Crystal keeping Ke'ala away from us for 4 months and that whole court drama was the saddest and most draining shitty thing (So glad that situation has gotten a million times better now). John and taking me back to court over taxes and then to deplete his child support was the most ridiculous shitty thing (That will never change). So I am left to sit here and reflect on my hopes and dreams for 2012.
I have not been shy about telling anyone that will listen that this is going to be a wonderful year. Amazing things are going to happen in 2012. In what capacity? I don’t know…I am not God, Buddha or the Universe. But I do know that SOMETHING is going to happen and it will be life changing in a good way. There are so many avenues in which greatness could prevail. I will leave that in the capable hands of the powers that be.
So the first week of the New Year really has not lived up to my vision so far...but I am hoping that this just means that all the bad is getting itself out of the way and making way for wonderful things. Lets see New Years Eve was not the best night...aside from doing shots with our friends that are over 1300 miles away (via telephone but it still rocked \nn/).
Now the car has broken down even though we have only had it for 6 months and the issues are not covered under warranty that was supposed to be so grand and amazing. Ken has to have surgery tomorrow and is still having stomach issues that doctors are being idiots about. All electronics are seeming to hate me at this point and are holding a mutiny. I have to ask...have I put too much stock in a year? Maybe I should say this year is going to be a year....a clean slate and we will make it what it is?? I have reflected on this and I think that when I put too much into anything..fantasying about things, or situations...it never comes to fruition.
So this me saying...2012 and is going to be a new year. Of new opportunities, of new adventures, of new situations. The good ones we will rejoice, the bad will help us grow and the mediocre will help us to appreciate the "down" time.
Here is to everyone reading this...cheers!
