So it is already almost the end of April. I am 1 day away from having a official teenager, as Logan turns 13 tomorrow. Where has time gone? It seems like only yesterday he was born 4 weeks early weighing 6 pounds 7 oz and needing preemie clothes...*sigh* now he is a young man. :/ I am proud and yet sad all at the same time.
2012 was supposed to be a better year than last year. Well that hasn't happened so far. Ken has had many health issues, our new car is no more, and it seems that our life is upside down. But this last week I discovered something. That through everything we can still smile and we do still know that no matter what, we have the best thing of all (if I may quote a song for a moment)...."We got our health, we got our friends (and fam) and we have a bottle full of Jameson." Life is always going to be a series of trials and speed bumps. There are going to be those days, those months, that you really wonder why you even bother to get outta bed. Then you remember those times that made you smile, those laughs, those moments that take your breath away and that is when you realize that is why you got outta bed...in hopes for more moments just like that.
This last week we had a lot of those moments. We shared some of the most amazing times with good friends, fam and bunch of crazy drunk people at 2 amazing concerts. The first concert here in the Fort was chill and rockin and all out fun. We reconnected with a great friend that we had lost contact with (Hi Lizzie), we got to share the show with our Cuzo Javon, who can always manage to brighten a room, met a great group of guys called No Bueno and of course our great friends/fam The Bastard Suns! They rocked the fuckin house! Fort Collins showed up ready to party and party we did. This was their first visit here and the turn out was amazing! The rest of the night and the next day was a rowdy good time of laughs, drinkin, and memories. Clay, JayTea, Levon, Kevin, Bobby, I don't think I have laughed so much or have been able to just have fun like that in a LONG time! My ribs still hurt! It was an honor to show you guys some of our spots here (I know you all love Fuzzy's :) ) and make your day off relaxing and hopefully a good time. :) The kids were so happy to finally get to meet the guys after hearing all the stories. They now have "uncles" that they know have their back too. My kids have lost a lot of family in their life and have been proved once again, that blood is not always what family is about.
Then came 4/20 in Denver. Again a Bastards concert! This one was off the hook crazy!! What would one expect on 4/20 right?! There was the mosh pit from Hell....I lasted a good while then realized I was WAY outta my league and went to the side stage...LOL, there was every song that I love and when you leave show sweating and sore you know it was EPIC! The only bad thing about the night was saying good bye. I hate goodbyes, so it was more of a "til next time". ;)
And now it is back to reality....but I know that I can face anything with good friends, family, my kids and Ken. Ken and I have been to hell and back together and yet here we are coming up on a 5yr anniversary of being a family. I would not trade him for the world. No one else gets me the way he does, accepts me the way he does or loves me the way he does. It is not all rainbows and sunshine but no ones life is. But no matter what, we have each others backs and we will always know that we can take on the world together. He makes me a better person, a stronger person and a happier person. He gave me the honor of being a step-mother to an amazing little girl that brings so much light to my life that words can not express. With out him I would be a ship lost at sea.
Here is where I would add some great pics from the concerts but alas I dropped my phone in the mosh pit and the SD card popped out and I lost everything stored on my phone. So I am sorry but the images will remain in my mind and only able to be shared through my words above.
So to my kids...I love you to the moon and back. Ken...I love you more than words can ever do justice to, you are my heart. To my "fam" my love goes with you wherever you are, wherever your travels take you. I am never more than a phone call away. So for now this is my blog. This is my thoughts. This is me.
<3 Me
